[ the charming smile just makes her lift an eyebrow at him, mostly because she can see right through it. and if anything, right to the years he's put on since she last saw him. but she pours the drink, a very healthy portion, before sliding the nearly full glass over to him and pouring one (not even half the size) of her own. ]
[It wasn't his place to explain why he and Sam got into it. Because that meant giving away Sam's end of things and he didn't know if he'd shared any of that with Jo yet.
He goes ahead and grabs the drink, taking a quick swig. It burns down his throat in the best kind of way and he sets the glass back down afterward deciding to take his time between drinks and make it last.]
[ she swirls around the liquid in her glass for a moment as she watches him, trying to gauge where he is and what he's feeling. when he doesn't elaborate and instead takes his long and slow drink, she takes a sip of her own. shorter, smaller, but with all the burn.
leaning against the back end of the bar and crossing her arms over her chest, jo waits. and then waits a little longer. and then can't wait any more. ]
So what exactly did you want to put to rest, again?
What happened to you and your mom. Jo, I'm sorry. You guys shouldn't have had to nuke yourselves to make sure me and Sam had opportunity to stop the apocalypse. I get why you wouldn't tell me when I was here before now, I do, but even if you did I don't think it would've changed anything. I just wish you guys weren't casualties of the whole damn thing. I'd do anything to bring you back.
[He puts it all out there because he knows if he doesn't he won't ever get around to admitting that it's his fault. That maybe it could've been prevented. He's so damn tired of losing people. So far he's lost everyone he's ever cared about. Charlie and Garth were new to the business and they wore on him but he still had his guard up because of what happened to Jo, Ellen, Bobby, and everyone else.]
[ the words come out so quickly and with so little preparation, jo just kind of freezes up. it's actually a miracle that the cup doesn't slip right through her fingers, with how little she's paying attention to it. she just never...expected this. ]
Dean- [ it's overwhelming, is what it is, because she's worked day in and day out to try and accept and move on from what happened. she learned to take it lightly and live her life like it wasn't that big of a deal, like it didn't matter, but hearing dean say those things? apologize? and with all these thoughts comes the feelings and her chest just sort of tightens.
so before she keeps going, she sets the glass down. stands up off the ledge she was leaning on and moves so that she's standing right in front of him. that she catches his eyes and makes him look at her. ]
Hey. You don't have to explain yourself. I get it. My mom and I- we knew what we were getting into. We know.
I'm just sayin', I understand why you wouldn't dish now. I wouldn't have been able to handle it. It took some time for me to grow up.
[He keeps the eye contact. The drink is forgotten for now, he's more concerned about Jo.]
To tell you the truth I'm glad this place nabbed you. At least I know you're alive and kickin' somewhere and with you and everyone else around this place ain't exactly as bad as I thought. So this is the part where I swallow my pride and admit how wrong I was, and how right you were.
I didn't want to dish because I'd knew you do this.
[ it's not that she doesn't appreciate the sentiments. dean is actually admitting she's right and he was wrong, and if dean wasn't looking twenty years older than he should be, with the guilt and the bags and everything else, she might have rubbed it in his face a little. but it's the same as when she's seen sam, recently. it's a tiredness that doesn't go away, even with a little laughter. ]
There's nothing for you to apologize for with what happened to me. It happened, and that's it. Now I'm here, and you know what? I'm okay with that. I could be here for another six months, or I could be gone tomorrow. But Dean, you can't. [ she presses her mouth into a thin line, trying to figure out how to word this. ] I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd like to have that one line recorded and put up on the wall. [ and is that a hint of a smile? maybe. but it drops again because she doesn't want him to get the idea that she's kidding around with this. ] But it's not that big of a deal.
Y'know. I think you're the only one that's not pissed at me. Sam's off the friggin' chart and Cas... I don't think I have the patience to deal with his mopey mortal attitude.
[Dean adjusts in his seat uncomfortably and scoops up his drink for another swig. At least there's booze. That always stayed consistent.]
I just want you to know that I get it, and if there was some way I could've stopped it- I would've. In a heart beat.
[ she's actually a little surprised to hear that sam is mad at dean, considering how worried he'd been about him disappearing, but at the same time she understands.
something must happen that no one is really a fan of. ]
Figured life's too short to really be pissed at anyone. [ ouch the irony. ] But they'll cool off soon. With you three's track record, hearing about the future probably wasn't the best news they've had all day.
[ she watches him go after the glass in silence for a moment, wondering if she should have given him that much in the first place. but she figures if anything, he needs it more than most, and she just shrugs. ]
You and me both, but it's not like it matters now. And geez, some hell of a welcome back you must have had.
Yeah, but you're still you. And we're still us. [ in jo's head, it all seems pretty simple. ] I mean, it's not like I enjoyed showing up here and hearing that I've been dead for years, but I got over it. There's the initial shock, sure, but... [ she gives a shrug. ] That might just be me, though.
Yeah, but sittin' on my hands while I wait for it's not doin' me much good. If I wasn't familiar with the whole scenario already I'd be doin' a helluva lot worse.
[Family didn't make it any easier. He and Sam weren't the same person, and life hadn't been very fair to either of them. There was no way of getting back to the people they used to be before the apocalypse, Leviathans, and everything else.]
How do you get over somethin' like that? [He doesn't get why she's not laying into him.] I mean- [There was nothing he could say to make this okay.] Forget it. Maybe you're right.
[ it's supposed to be light, like she's kidding with him, but there's a tone of seriousness to it as there always is whenever jo's trying to get dean to actually listen. ]
So you need some time, it's not a big deal. At least you're here to do something about it.
[ she's quiet for a moment at his question, thinking it over and trying to come up with someone a little deeper than her answer. something that'll mean a little more. but when she can't come up with anything, she just shrugs again. ]
Dunno. Guess knowing that this is all I have kind of put things into perspective? I could be mad, but then I'd be spending however much time I have here mad, and I'm not really sure I wanna do that.
[ while she may be a little surprised at first, not expecting the kiss, she eventually just smiles at him when he pulls away.
there might be a thought to stop him, make him sit back down and stay with her until he shakes whatever mood he's in, but it probably wouldn't even work. ]
That's what I'm here for. And you know where to find me, now that you're back and all.
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Date: 2013-07-18 04:18 am (UTC)Guessing the family talk didn't go well.
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Date: 2013-07-18 04:27 am (UTC)[It wasn't his place to explain why he and Sam got into it. Because that meant giving away Sam's end of things and he didn't know if he'd shared any of that with Jo yet.
He goes ahead and grabs the drink, taking a quick swig. It burns down his throat in the best kind of way and he sets the glass back down afterward deciding to take his time between drinks and make it last.]
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Date: 2013-07-18 04:36 am (UTC)[ she swirls around the liquid in her glass for a moment as she watches him, trying to gauge where he is and what he's feeling. when he doesn't elaborate and instead takes his long and slow drink, she takes a sip of her own. shorter, smaller, but with all the burn.
leaning against the back end of the bar and crossing her arms over her chest, jo waits. and then waits a little longer. and then can't wait any more. ]
So what exactly did you want to put to rest, again?
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Date: 2013-07-18 05:01 am (UTC)[He puts it all out there because he knows if he doesn't he won't ever get around to admitting that it's his fault. That maybe it could've been prevented. He's so damn tired of losing people. So far he's lost everyone he's ever cared about. Charlie and Garth were new to the business and they wore on him but he still had his guard up because of what happened to Jo, Ellen, Bobby, and everyone else.]
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Date: 2013-07-18 05:50 am (UTC)Dean- [ it's overwhelming, is what it is, because she's worked day in and day out to try and accept and move on from what happened. she learned to take it lightly and live her life like it wasn't that big of a deal, like it didn't matter, but hearing dean say those things? apologize? and with all these thoughts comes the feelings and her chest just sort of tightens.
so before she keeps going, she sets the glass down. stands up off the ledge she was leaning on and moves so that she's standing right in front of him. that she catches his eyes and makes him look at her. ]
Hey. You don't have to explain yourself. I get it. My mom and I- we knew what we were getting into. We know.
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Date: 2013-07-18 05:55 am (UTC)[He keeps the eye contact. The drink is forgotten for now, he's more concerned about Jo.]
To tell you the truth I'm glad this place nabbed you. At least I know you're alive and kickin' somewhere and with you and everyone else around this place ain't exactly as bad as I thought. So this is the part where I swallow my pride and admit how wrong I was, and how right you were.
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Date: 2013-07-19 10:49 pm (UTC)[ it's not that she doesn't appreciate the sentiments. dean is actually admitting she's right and he was wrong, and if dean wasn't looking twenty years older than he should be, with the guilt and the bags and everything else, she might have rubbed it in his face a little. but it's the same as when she's seen sam, recently. it's a tiredness that doesn't go away, even with a little laughter. ]
There's nothing for you to apologize for with what happened to me. It happened, and that's it. Now I'm here, and you know what? I'm okay with that. I could be here for another six months, or I could be gone tomorrow. But Dean, you can't. [ she presses her mouth into a thin line, trying to figure out how to word this. ] I mean, don't get me wrong. I'd like to have that one line recorded and put up on the wall. [ and is that a hint of a smile? maybe. but it drops again because she doesn't want him to get the idea that she's kidding around with this. ] But it's not that big of a deal.
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Date: 2013-07-20 04:14 pm (UTC)[Dean adjusts in his seat uncomfortably and scoops up his drink for another swig. At least there's booze. That always stayed consistent.]
I just want you to know that I get it, and if there was some way I could've stopped it- I would've. In a heart beat.
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:53 pm (UTC)something must happen that no one is really a fan of. ]
Figured life's too short to really be pissed at anyone. [ ouch the irony. ] But they'll cool off soon. With you three's track record, hearing about the future probably wasn't the best news they've had all day.
[ she watches him go after the glass in silence for a moment, wondering if she should have given him that much in the first place. but she figures if anything, he needs it more than most, and she just shrugs. ]
You and me both, but it's not like it matters now. And geez, some hell of a welcome back you must have had.
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Date: 2013-07-22 03:09 am (UTC)[Dean bites his bottom lip and stares at the bottom of his glass through the amber liquid inside.]
To tell you the truth I expected a full-scale blow out. I didn't know how jacked up the timelines were until I got back.
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Date: 2013-07-23 02:46 am (UTC)[ but then she frowns. ] What'do you mean?
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Date: 2013-07-23 03:10 am (UTC)[He doesn't want to be on Sam's bad side forever.]
I mean that we're all from different years, different days. Some of us are ahead others are behind. It's a lot to consider.
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Date: 2013-07-24 02:26 am (UTC)[ you're family after all. ]
Yeah, but you're still you. And we're still us. [ in jo's head, it all seems pretty simple. ] I mean, it's not like I enjoyed showing up here and hearing that I've been dead for years, but I got over it. There's the initial shock, sure, but... [ she gives a shrug. ] That might just be me, though.
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Date: 2013-07-24 03:08 am (UTC)[Family didn't make it any easier. He and Sam weren't the same person, and life hadn't been very fair to either of them. There was no way of getting back to the people they used to be before the apocalypse, Leviathans, and everything else.]
How do you get over somethin' like that? [He doesn't get why she's not laying into him.] I mean- [There was nothing he could say to make this okay.] Forget it. Maybe you're right.
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Date: 2013-07-27 01:34 am (UTC)[ it's supposed to be light, like she's kidding with him, but there's a tone of seriousness to it as there always is whenever jo's trying to get dean to actually listen. ]
So you need some time, it's not a big deal. At least you're here to do something about it.
[ she's quiet for a moment at his question, thinking it over and trying to come up with someone a little deeper than her answer. something that'll mean a little more. but when she can't come up with anything, she just shrugs again. ]
Dunno. Guess knowing that this is all I have kind of put things into perspective? I could be mad, but then I'd be spending however much time I have here mad, and I'm not really sure I wanna do that.
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Date: 2013-07-27 10:45 pm (UTC)[He looks at his glass, and pushes it aside. He's not really in the mood to drink his problems. Things from home were still weighing on him.]
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Date: 2013-07-28 02:28 am (UTC)[ that was supposed to be a joke, but jo has a sinking feeling it didn't really do it's job. ]
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Date: 2013-07-28 07:03 am (UTC)I gotta go. It was nice catchin' up.
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Date: 2013-07-29 03:01 am (UTC)there might be a thought to stop him, make him sit back down and stay with her until he shakes whatever mood he's in, but it probably wouldn't even work. ]
That's what I'm here for. And you know where to find me, now that you're back and all.