[ there is an actual moment there where jo considers punching him, just for that sound. it's very telling when it comes to her state of anger that she would punch him. but also not. jo wanting to punch dean is not a new concept. ]
Forget it. It doesn't matter.
[ more like jo has nothing else to say about that, because really, she doesn't. she's grasping at straws and she just wants there to be somewhere her anger can go. and when dean starts questioning her? that's a perfect place. ]
I could have, if you had given me the chance. If you'd given me a warning rather than just trying to slam me through the wall. And seeing how that was the last I saw you? Finding you waiting outside my door? How would you have reacted? If you had just called me-
[ she would have made an exception for dean. she would have, but at the same time, she didn't. hadn't. and when dean tries to end the conversation there, she panics. ]
No, you don't get to just stop there. What wouldn't I get?
[ come on, jo, he dares you to throw one at him. ]
Called you? You would've just freakin' hung up on me or better yet never even answered. [ because he knows you, jo, he really does. and maybe it's because that's what dean would have done himself, or something, but he has little doubt that she would have listened to a word he would have had to say about meeting up and holding hands after what he'd tried to do to her.
and yet...
maybe he does regret not telling her. maybe she would have answered, would have spoken to him. he can't know now though, won't know and this is easier. turning away is easier. ]
I do and I will. End of conversation.
[ lalalala going right out the door!! and he doesn't look like he's much in the mood to stop once in the hallway either. ]
If you called me right when you noticed, right at the beginning of the jump, I wouldn't have. [ if he knew her, he would have known that without the scare, without the fact she saw her life flash right before her eyes at his hand, she would have done anything to help him. he was all the family she had left - he and sam. she would have done anything.
but he didn't. and it made her out to be the reckless one, and after that one interaction, every time she thought about him it was with that hanging over her head. the image of his fangs, the fact he had looked at her like that. he'd terrified her, and the last thing she ever wanted to feel was fear. it was only logical for her to stay away from him.
but this? where she had honestly - and she doesn't know why, this is dean winchester we're talking about - thought this would fix things. somehow.
she was wrong. ]
No, Dean- [ but he's gone, turned and out the door, and before she even knows what she's doing she's lunged after him, her hands on the door-frame as he walks off down the hall. jo's desperate at this point, and it's that feeling that leaves her feeling worse than before.
she doesn't want him to leave, not like this. ] Dean! You walk away from this and you're going to wish you hadn't.
[ he hates to admit it, but it's true. he'd hauled ass to get out of the place after the jump, had made sera cry and and almost flipped out on scott. nothing had gone well and calling anyone hadn't been his first priority, not with how the hunger had roared in him right off the bat.
but no, he's done, he's not doing this anymore.
he doesn't care for her warning, doesn't give a shit in this moment of anger. he knows she'll be right but he'll deal with that later, when he's had time to put his thoughts together, when shit starts to make sense again ( if ever will ). he should stop, needs to remember that anything can happen in this place, either one of them could die, could disappear, but he doesn't.
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Date: 2013-12-01 07:52 am (UTC)Forget it. It doesn't matter.
[ more like jo has nothing else to say about that, because really, she doesn't. she's grasping at straws and she just wants there to be somewhere her anger can go. and when dean starts questioning her? that's a perfect place. ]
I could have, if you had given me the chance. If you'd given me a warning rather than just trying to slam me through the wall. And seeing how that was the last I saw you? Finding you waiting outside my door? How would you have reacted? If you had just called me-
[ she would have made an exception for dean. she would have, but at the same time, she didn't. hadn't. and when dean tries to end the conversation there, she panics. ]
No, you don't get to just stop there. What wouldn't I get?
ax » action
Date: 2013-12-01 08:03 am (UTC)Called you? You would've just freakin' hung up on me or better yet never even answered. [ because he knows you, jo, he really does. and maybe it's because that's what dean would have done himself, or something, but he has little doubt that she would have listened to a word he would have had to say about meeting up and holding hands after what he'd tried to do to her.
and yet...
maybe he does regret not telling her. maybe she would have answered, would have spoken to him. he can't know now though, won't know and this is easier. turning away is easier. ]
I do and I will. End of conversation.
[ lalalala going right out the door!! and he doesn't look like he's much in the mood to stop once in the hallway either. ]
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Date: 2013-12-01 04:38 pm (UTC)If you called me right when you noticed, right at the beginning of the jump, I wouldn't have. [ if he knew her, he would have known that without the scare, without the fact she saw her life flash right before her eyes at his hand, she would have done anything to help him. he was all the family she had left - he and sam. she would have done anything.
but he didn't. and it made her out to be the reckless one, and after that one interaction, every time she thought about him it was with that hanging over her head. the image of his fangs, the fact he had looked at her like that. he'd terrified her, and the last thing she ever wanted to feel was fear. it was only logical for her to stay away from him.
but this? where she had honestly - and she doesn't know why, this is dean winchester we're talking about - thought this would fix things. somehow.
she was wrong. ]
No, Dean- [ but he's gone, turned and out the door, and before she even knows what she's doing she's lunged after him, her hands on the door-frame as he walks off down the hall. jo's desperate at this point, and it's that feeling that leaves her feeling worse than before.
she doesn't want him to leave, not like this. ] Dean! You walk away from this and you're going to wish you hadn't.
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Date: 2013-12-01 11:04 pm (UTC)[ he hates to admit it, but it's true. he'd hauled ass to get out of the place after the jump, had made sera cry and and almost flipped out on scott. nothing had gone well and calling anyone hadn't been his first priority, not with how the hunger had roared in him right off the bat.
but no, he's done, he's not doing this anymore.
he doesn't care for her warning, doesn't give a shit in this moment of anger. he knows she'll be right but he'll deal with that later, when he's had time to put his thoughts together, when shit starts to make sense again ( if ever will ). he should stop, needs to remember that anything can happen in this place, either one of them could die, could disappear, but he doesn't.
can't.
so he just leaves. ]