[ she wants to get angry. she wants to throw another fit like she did with wichita. she wants to stay mad at dean because that's easier and that's been her comfort state for the last couple of months.
or is a few minutes after telling you too early to ask
[ dean is stupidly upset. he'd finally remembered benny, finally lived through purgatory with him and now he's gone. just like that, and he won't be waiting back home. he's upset, but he can't let himself focus on it. ]
she can see right through it. but she also knows she's not really in the right state with dean to call him out on it, not that he'd appreciate it even if she was in the right state. ]
no it's fine I'm okay
as weird as it sounds I think I'm going to miss that vamp
[ too soon? she doesn't even know, or knows if she cares. she's been unbelievably lonely these last couple of months and benny and sam and bells are really the only reason she can do anything at all.
now it's just sam and bells. god that's painful. ]
[ maybe so, but the second part of her text has him pausing a fraction, as a smile grows on his face. it's small, and obviously not visible to her, but it...
it gives him something fonder to cling to, even if his time with the vampire on the ship was mostly spent hating the guy. ]
nothing weird about it
[ he's going to miss benny too, especially now that he won't be seeing him back home again. ]
[ honestly? she blames the accent. and the fact he's a great drinking buddy. that plus the fact she's sure benny's the only reason she managed to get through that whole vampire episode with dean...
oh god she still has his axe. that makes jo pause a little, the loss clinging to her stomach. ]
so I can't remember where you're from now but does he end up alright? back home? do you even know?
[ part of jo doesn't even know why she bothers asking. knowing what back home means, she knows he doesn't. knows whatever happens isn't good. but she has to ask. ]
[ he goes back to a life he doesn't fit anymore. he goes back to fall off the wagon. he goes back to dean asking for him to go back to purgatory, to get sam out, and dean sends him there by cutting off his head.
he doesn't get back out again.
it's the truth, but like always, the truth is so horrible, so twisted and makes dean feel like his hands are never going to wash clean, that his immediate reaction is to cut this right here and now... no matter that he and jo are finally talking again.
it takes him a long while to reply. ]
does anyone? look I got other stuff to take care of alright We'll talk some other time
[ she's not really sure what to think of his response, or how long it takes him to get back to her. whatever it is can't be good, and her mind goes off in all the wrong directions. all sorts of ways that leave her a little more unsettled than she originally ha been.
what did you do, dean
and then he's cutting off, and jo feels that twinge of anger. a twinge she should be used to by now, but catches her every time. fine, don't talk to her. it's not like she cares. ]
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ax » text
Date: 2014-01-15 05:25 pm (UTC)figured at first that he just took off from the couches which is why I didn't see him but
his communicator isnt active anymore.
I'd say it's for the better but... yeah.
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-15 11:27 pm (UTC)but she can't. ]
you okay?
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 02:13 pm (UTC)Are you?
or is a few minutes after telling you too early to ask
[ dean is stupidly upset. he'd finally remembered benny, finally lived through purgatory with him and now he's gone. just like that, and he won't be waiting back home. he's upset, but he can't let himself focus on it. ]
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 03:59 pm (UTC)she can see right through it. but she also knows she's not really in the right state with dean to call him out on it, not that he'd appreciate it even if she was in the right state. ]
no it's fine
I'm okay
as weird as it sounds I think I'm going to miss that vamp
[ too soon? she doesn't even know, or knows if she cares. she's been unbelievably lonely these last couple of months and benny and sam and bells are really the only reason she can do anything at all.
now it's just sam and bells. god that's painful. ]
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 09:02 pm (UTC)it gives him something fonder to cling to, even if his time with the vampire on the ship was mostly spent hating the guy. ]
nothing weird about it
[ he's going to miss benny too, especially now that he won't be seeing him back home again. ]
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 09:12 pm (UTC)oh god she still has his axe. that makes jo pause a little, the loss clinging to her stomach. ]
so I can't remember where you're from now
but
does he end up alright? back home?
do you even know?
[ part of jo doesn't even know why she bothers asking. knowing what back home means, she knows he doesn't. knows whatever happens isn't good. but she has to ask. ]
ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 09:50 pm (UTC)he doesn't get back out again.
it's the truth, but like always, the truth is so horrible, so twisted and makes dean feel like his hands are never going to wash clean, that his immediate reaction is to cut this right here and now... no matter that he and jo are finally talking again.
it takes him a long while to reply. ]
does anyone?
look I got other stuff to take care of alright
We'll talk some other time
Re: ax » text
Date: 2014-01-16 09:58 pm (UTC)what did you do, dean
and then he's cutting off, and jo feels that twinge of anger. a twinge she should be used to by now, but catches her every time. fine, don't talk to her. it's not like she cares. ]
you know where to find me